Last week I was on vacation. John and I drove down to Florida and Lord knows I needed the sunshine, the massive amounts of sleep, quality time with my guy, and to MAJORLY. UNPLUG.
I was so unplugged, that I might as well have been on another planet. It was great, actually.
What vacation did was give me SPACE - it gave me distance from my routine and my social media immersion, and allowed me to come back to it with a newer, healthier approach, I think. I've been wondering (again) about this website and this blog space and how I want it to work for me...
I miss, like, missssssssssss writing here. Writing like THIS here. Since working for me & my BIG ideas, and managing and putting out the content on their blog everyday since September 2014, my own voice and space and direction has veered into a watered down version, I believe. Oh, an please note: I'm NOT complaining. I love my job and am grateful to moon for it forever, but I'm feeling in need of a refresh.
What do I want? What do I, like, WAANNNNTT?! ...and more importantly, how am I going to make it happen? These are the questions. These are always the questions.
I look at people who seemingly 'do it all' and wonder how I can get everything I want to get done, done. Elise Joy's recent answer to this was spot on. She said, shrink your definition of 'all'. I guess that's true, because great things are happening all around me all the time, but I still get a little lost. Every day brings with it a bright world of potential, but at the same time a new set of challenges.
...and then I read a wonderful blog post by Austin Kleon talking about seasons of creativity, and the nun Corita Kent (that I'm now WILDLY interested in) who - after being a nun in Los Angeles for 30 years - moved to Boston to live quietly and make art. I'll again direct you to Austin's blog post because he wrote it better than I ever could, but the gist of it was this:
..to an outsider, it might look like I'm doing nothing, that growth has stunted or that I'm 'comfortable' in my situation and therefore stagnant . But that's not true. “New things are happening very quietly inside of me."
So that's where I'm at right at this very moment in time, Friday August 12th, 2016. Oh, that reminds me: it's my cousin Claudia's 20th birthday today, and FOUR years ago was when we DIYed a photoshoot backdrop out of poster board and crepe paper and had a Sweet 16 Photoshoot in my mom's backyard.
I missssssssssss sharing projects like that here... and the missing of this type of content and the longing for certain work... that's what I've been acutely feeling. "New things are happening very quietly inside of me."
P.S. - My one little word for 2017 is hidden somewhere in this blog post. Any guesses?